The Purposed Trek

I have learned a lot through out this time of planning and working towards relocating to South Africa. Me being the planner that I am and one who has everything figured out, cannot figure one key aspect out about this venture. I have figured out how to get a visa (3 years at that), how to pack efficiently and purge the unecessary, how to make the time I have left exciting yet somehow running out of it sooner than what I thought I would...there are other things that have worked out. The one thing I cannot figure out is how this year will be financed. I have learned that I can do what I know to do to raise funds/support, but the bottom line is...it is not my reponsbility. Now yes taking care of ones self if their responsbility and I feel that I am doing just that, going through the things I know to do and know how to do. This whole experience is a stretch - not moving to another continent (I am sure I can write more on that stretch once I am there), but letting go of the responsbility of providing for myself. People have been asking me - how do you feel about the finances and the fact that I don't have my year 100% funded at this point. Obedience is what is required, not the know how. Meaning I know that what I am doing is in the "cards" so to speak, it is something that is required of me and something that I know is in my destiny. Therefore how everything unfolds is up to God, He is the one who put the plan in motion before I was even born, therefore I have to just be obedient and He won't let me down. He never has before, so why would He now. Sure things might be tight at times, I might not have everything at my fingertips like I have had and I am okay with that. But will I have shelter and food - yes. That is all that is required to live. Am I blessed beyond measure in this current, fluid life as I know it? Yes I am - more than I could have imagined. Am I loved unconditionally - yes I am and He makes it known to me daily. The God who makes us alive with His own life says..."I am God. I have called you to live right and well. I have taken responsibility for you, kept you safe." He has done that in the past, He won't leave me high and dry now. So here I sit - 20 days away from flying out, and supper relaxed - taking every day as it comes, whether it is working late or having dinner with a friend, I am very content and at peace in this place. I am half way packed, have 7 more days of work, a going away party, a birthday party to attend, hosting a friend from Colorado for a couple of days, donate my hair to locks of love, and drive to the beach to hang out with my parents some and then head further south to my cousins wedding...and everything seems right. South Africa here I come.

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