The Purposed Trek

Here I sit, August 2nd at my desk at my comfortable job, thinking about all the things that I thought I needed in life...a house, a car, amazing parents, great friends, awesome church, decent salary, and the list can go on. Now it isn't that I don't need these things anymore, but they aren't the reason for my existence. I love my family, friends and the folks I work with, but a new plan has come forth and it was time to rid myself of things (not people) that were holding me back in life and following my dreams and passions. One might ask...what are your dreams and passions Marci? Well that is what has been unfolding in the days past and the days to come. I would have told you previous to my recent encounters with God that my dreams were to be financially stable and independent, to have a home, car, etc...now as I rid myself of those items and the mindset of thinking how important those things are in life, the dreams and passions that I thought were mine are being stripped away and the purpose God has created me for and the passion within my heart is being revealed. So although I am confident in the plan over the next few months that it is the right plan and the thing to do, God made it clear to me..."Don't plan on the plan". Meaning, I did show the next steps to you, but be flexible because it can all change. That was enough to cause me to cry...not just sniffle or tear-up, but an all out gusher. In the midst of bawling like a baby I surrendered to the uncertainty of my future. I surrendered to the instability of everything and the adventure that is before me. I have come to the conclusion that this is not a plan I would have ever concocted and those who know me well would completely agree. Oversees travel, no job, no home, no agenda when I get to CO, is not the typical Marci thing to do. But in this whole process, the very thing that I have been crying out for the last 2-3 years of my life is freedom and it is the very thing I am feeling. It isn't about where I reside or what I am doing for a living, it is the complete and total mindset that I am breaking out of. So in the next few months the plans thus far revealed to me may change. I did purchase the tickets to be in Africa and England from October 13th - December 30th, but what comes after that...God knows, and it could be revealed before the new year or not. It is all okay in my book - I just want to free and if that requires me not knowing the plan, then I am okay with not knowing the plan. Stay tuned for any updates. I will be posting pictures and entries for sure once the purposed trek begins.

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